Hi everyone...I would like to inform my freinds that this will be my final xanga entry.  I will miss talking to you guys...Yvonne, Sarah, Caleb, and Jaclyn...as for the rest of you...im sorry that you feel the way that you do and that you've closed your minds to the other side of the story...but that's your choice.  To my friends, i will be getting an e-mail soon so i can talk to you that way.  I regret ever getting xanga but im glad that Mallori has such good friends that are willing to defend her at any cost.

I love you all and you are in my prayers

Respectfully

Emily.

You know what really bugs me...somebody hating you for something that happened a while back and you've even apologized for this something.  It's making school absolutely miserable and im not sure how much longer i can go... everyday i want to scream but i cant..besides, who would i scream to?  nobody really cares as far as im concerned...and im to the point where i don't care either...school sucks and there's nothing i can do about it.  Ive been having these nightmares where im at school and i just snap...mentally-bad.  i end up telling or yelling at these certain people and telling them every little thought ive had.  how much i hate them and how im through trying not to hate them because they're not going to put any effort in trying not to hate me.  I become physically wasted and can't stand.  I lay on the floor, scared, looking up at the people above me, leaning over me leering and pointing at me and there is nothing i can do.  I wish that this particular nightmare would stop coming back.  Well, that's my pity party for today and im glad i have xanga to vent on...

Say goodbye to the Nightmare, it's only holding you down.  Say goodbye to the hurt, it's not going to hurt anymore.  Well, Nightmare, its my life and youre not going to rule it anymore.  I'll say what i want, do what i want, and i don't care what you think.   Goodbye. 

Allright, allright...JSB was OK.  The afterparty was the highlight though.  But first things first...During JSB:

1) Andrea passed out...took plenty of picturs

2) the sound on the video temporarily decided to not work

3)Food was good

4)Got willed a wodden pistol, a dollar, and a pen

5) had to sing to the seniors.

AT THE AFTERPARTY:

1) swam

2)overflowed the hot tub

3)Threw a certain female classmate into the pool against her will

4)Andrea passed out

5)Andrea goes to the ER

6) Andrea throws up on 39th

7)Played Texas Hold'em for three hours straight. (I AM THE CHAMPION!)

8)Played strip poker without real cards and with the rules that the dealer always wins.

9) didn't sleep AT ALL

10) went home at 6:30 AM.

Yep, that's about it...i'm sure there's plenty of stuff im forgettin but...oh well...BYE!!!

AHHHH!! once again!  It's finally Friday, why am i not happy about it? Oh yeah, i remember, tomorrow's the JSB, that's it.  I found the problem.  I'm fireing the psychiatrist...welll, maybe not.

I'm working tomorrow also.  At Trinity from 10 to 1. then i have to rush home and get ready for the JSB.  I NEED MONEY!!!  Somebody HIRE ME!!!

First I would like to thank my friend Yvonne for trying to find my clothes.  You're the best!!!!!!!!!!  Even just looking is better than nothing at all.  Thanks again.

And now i get to rant on the play.  It is NOT going well at all.  She (director) even talked about cancelling.  not good.  We've got i think three more practices before dress rehearsal.  The dress reheasal will be the first time we get to practice on the stage that we will be preforming on.  And not very many people have thier lines memorized.  not good...really not good.  We're taking pictures tomorrow and i don't have my costume yet.  It's going to be interesting.  But we get to do it at SNU on one of thier smaller stages.  unfortuantly not in herrik auditorium.

well, that's about all, pray for us and the play...we certainly need it.  Here's a goodbye to all you patater diggers.